“I never meant any harm. How is it still possible that I hurt you? I didn’t do anything!” Is the lie I continue to tell myself. Deep down I know I have wronged you, haven’t I? I’ve drifted. Again. This cycle of people coming in and leaving without a word. It is all my fault yet I refuse to aknowledge it. I don’t mean to drift away so far from you, it’s a habit no one has broken yet. I truly thought that I wouldn’t drift away from you, I don’t want to. This day would’ve been the day I would’ve been hospitalized or pronounced dead, and you wouldn’t of had a clue. This is no illusion. A car crash on a bridge. Swerving and weaving, life flash. Fading memories. Control. 

 

 

 

I am alive and I wish to speak to You.